I hit a wall with my folio (in week 10 = breakdown) so I decided to change my idea around a little bit.
The concept of the dialectical self was my initial idea and I loved the thought of playing with opposites in my images but it just didn’t go the way I thought, so I’ve scrapped it. I realised it can’t just be about me (which I only did in the beginning to eliminate feeling like I was making a statement about self-esteem in general, turns out, if I’m making images it can’t really be avoided…)
I sent out this post on Facebook:
I’m doing a project on Self Esteem, and am in need of your opinions.
What specific outside influences do you think make you feel a bit inadequate, and consequently have a negative impact on your self esteem?
For example: scrolling through your Instagram feed and seeing pictures of Beyonce being perfect. It can be anything, having a major influence or seemingly insignificant.
This is just for research, no identities will be included. Inbox me if you prefer.
Thanks for helping!!
Here are some of the very honest responses:
If I think about it, I think mine stems from an idea of competition. Seeing someone do something better makes you feel inferior. For instance Dan being better at tacos, or a person you like talking to a much more attractive person. I guess it’s other people’s successes that make you doubt yourself and your own.
Creativity – feeling inadequate in a creative sense there are so many unique individuals out there with some brilliant projects and then reflecting on your inner creative being and feeling sad that you don’t dedicate enough of your time or take enough of a risk on yourself to get out there and do what your hearts desire,
Spending everyday of my life looking at endless photographs by photographers I will never be as awesome as and are usually younger than me and have traveled further than I have – All about success … as far as young photographers, anything by Francesca Woodman who was dead before she reached my age, James Friedman who was shooting since he was 9… There are loads of photographers that make me feel insecure. As far as beautiful women I get frustrated when I see film photos of pretty girls cos it hasn’t been edited and I cannot blame the marketing industry.
Body image in photos is a big one for me! Of others mostly. just looking at skinny beautiful girls and then uploading a photo of yourself makes me feel shit haha
A lot of expectation that has built up society to be what it is today Effects my self esteem. I feel like there’s a lot of pressure for girls to be perfect as cliche as that sounds. Like even silly things like farting, pooing, wanting to have sex, being angry things we all do and feel but to some people it’s shamed upon if your a girl and you are made to feel embarrassed and awkwardd
Yeah mine also stems back to mental health – not being to reach my potential due to the barriers it creates.
And when people talk about loosing weight infront of me LIKE HELLO HAVE U SEEN ME CAN U NOT. And I don’t mean them just being healthy either cos being healthy is awesome ! Just when they say things to fit in because that’s society’s ideal so they feel they have to be saying those kinda of things which makes me feel like I can’t feel good about myself at my size
‘I can’t eat this grape I won’t fit into my my size 4 pants’ *over exaggerates*
People like to believe it’s a quick fix like “maybe if you exercised more and ate better” I eat freaking incredibly and I’m still not well, if I was an antelope I’d have been eaten by a lion by now. Society isn’t geared to take care of individuals, it’s geared to take care of itself. You fall behind, you stay there. It’d be great to have the time to take care of myself and get well but that aint gonna happen because of where I live
The main thing that makes me feel this way is being on Facebook and seeing where the people I grew up with are in life in comparison to where I am. I tell myself a million times not to compare (and most of the time it works) but it’s hard when your good friend from a few years back is now married with a house and child and you are the same age and just barely finished school.
Also, I have had body issues since I was young. I’m a tall girl and members of my family always made it seem like I would be more attractive if I just lost a bit of weight. I like to eat and find it very difficult to diet so my emotions towards the issue, mixed with lack of motivation and seeing people who are fit on social media often makes me feel inadequate.
I also have certain issues from men I have seen in my past making me feel that way, mainly someone I was with for four years. My sister once said to me “Don’t be surprised when the guy chooses the skinny girl over you.” and he did. Throughout the relationship he spoke to many thinner girls behind my back and eventually left me for one.
It is a daily struggle to make myself feel adequate. I have come a long way in the last few years but it is something I still have an issue with.
“The reason we struggle with insecurity is because we compare our behind-the-scenes with everyone else’s highlight reel” I would say that’s been the most consistent battle for me. I find if I have a lot of down time or if I’m stuck doing the same thing over and over I start to feel panicked as though I won’t ever be able to break the cycle and that I’m being left behind while everyone is out having fun.